This Journey is so Exciting!

I am excited to write. 🙂

I am full of smile at this moment. Even though I am longed for his presence, cried for so many nights, I keep on smiling and praying. We always remind ourselves that everything will be alright. We are both thankful to God how He used us on the things and plans he wants for us and for our family. God’s  glory is beyond words.

I can’t imagine that we will gonna talk most of the time in a phone screen starting from now on. His mom told me how excited she is to see her son and also his younger sister is so excited too.

Around 1:00 PM (Monday afternoon) here in Manila and 9:40 PM (Sunday Night) in California. I am happy that I don’t have a schedule work.  I am thanking God for making a way for us to talk. 🙂 Our first video call is so memorable. 🙂 We talked for almost 6 hours. This is unbelievable! He stayed awake until 4 AM and 7 PM here in Manila just to talk to me. The questions like how are u, did you already eat, hows the PAL experience (hehe), jet log,  hows your mom and sis, what did you eat on dinner etc,. He sends me a lot of selfies and scenery in his place. I saw a lot of pictures on his mom Facebook welcoming him in his hometown.  My eyes is filled with tears of joy not a loneliness anymore. I am so happy for bf that finally after so many long long years, he saw his mom and his little sister again. He told me how happy he was. So am I.

He told me a lot of things even though it is his first night. My attention is only to him and I listened  in every words that he said. I always miss him every single day. Even though if he’s still here in Manila, I miss him, we both always miss each other and we always find a way to talk to after work or even we are both busy. Now, distance is our enemy. And, timezone  too.  Ahaha. Manila is 15-hours ahead in CA. When sunshine rise here,  stars and moonlight rise in CA.  We cannot say same “good mornings” and “good night”  on our own timezone,  his night is my day and my day is his night, vise versa. But, sooner or later he will be with me again and with his family here.

Anyways, we are happy and both positive. We are ready on this chapter of our lives. We talked about this how many times.  We are not babies anymore.  We need to be strong  and make a decision on our own but still we need to listen to each others side.  🙂 And sometimes there was once a time when we talk about this, we noticed that after  a long talk, our mouths is full of praise and worship in God and how He changed our lives from the start and I started to cry again. It is miracle. This was happened so many times. That’s why we stay positive and lift up everything to God.

I am so proud of bf how strong he is to made a decision like this. Even though it is hard for him, for both of us and for his family. He choose it. I always ask why? He simply told me that “GOD is with me”.  He is a positive person. All the things that he do is dedicated for his family and for his and our future. He don’t do this alone. He is with GOD. There’s a lot of testimonies I want to share how God use Jereamy according to his will. Jereamy is not a vocal person or even broadcasting everything he do.  But I know, when you are with him, you will be amaze who is Jereamy is.  🙂

I am not yet finish to write, but maybe, this entry is too long enough to share the things I want to write.

This is a new chapter of his life. As well as in his family and mine. This new chapter of his life will be a way to have a memorable bonding with his family in CA too. I am happy when I saw the pictures of his family there full of joy and excitement to see him. 🙂 We are sad, but if this is God’s will, we will accept it. We both highly believed that God has a purpose behind all of these.

God speaks to Jereamy’s heart.  He need to do his mission as a child of God.

Let’s continue to be positive, happy and full of hope. Always look at the bright side. Worrying is a waste of time. Put our worries into prayer. No more dramas. Just Love. ❤

 

This journey is so exciting!

 

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His first night. 🙂 Our First video call 🙂

I do love you and miss you. 

One Summer Night


One summer night, where the dark sky shines. It is brighter than the stars tonight. A loud music that I can’t remember. So crowded, I can’t see their faces clearly. I see you, your eyes is looking up in the sky. It is sparkling and smiling.

One summer night, where the dark sky shines brighter. We will always remember, only you and me, holding each others hand under the spectacular fireworks. 

We will always remember and never forget. ☺️

MimingsTour, Zambales [Celebrating our 6th year Anniversary]

He gave us 2 days to enjoy our moments together. Is it okay if we ask more than what we already have? This is a selfish attitude.  Every time I think about that day, I suddenly smile again. The feeling is still the same and it feels like it was just happened yesterday. Why can’t happy moments  stay for a long time and never ends?

An entry like this is very important after every special moments that we shared together. This is so special aside from keeping  a lot of pictures.

Mimings couple first time in Northern part of the Philippines. We went to Zambales for 2days to celebrate our 6th year anniversary of love and thanking God for all the blessings that we received from him. One of the special occasion of our lives that we will never  forget.

 

March 5, Sunday, we leaved Manila before the dawn and we arrived earlier at Zambales. I think we are both excited because this is our first time in Zambales. Yeheey!  Sa totoo lang na eexcite ako! It is so hot as expected. We don’t feel like to swim that time and we decided to walk around and took a lot of selfies. We enjoy  the peaceful scenery of beach, trees and sands. How lovely it is. Our face is smiling from the start since we arrived.

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We have a lot of time before we swim at the beach and still it is so hot. We lay on the white sand under the trees  and talk a lot of things specially about the future.  We made a video recording and we ate chocolates. 🙂 We love sweets anyways. We walk while holding each others hands. I am easily feel tired because of the hot temperature but we are both full of joy and enjoying each time of our moment together.

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It’s already 4:30 PM and we decided to swim. Finally! We ran on the beach.  I like the beach waves. Even though I am afraid in the water because I feel like I will be suffocated, bf is always beside me.

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All I hear is the beach waves and the laughs of people. I look around, everyone is having a wonderful time with their family and friends. I smile. I saw Jereamy’s smiling on me. This is so priceless.

As the time goes by, we saw the sun and it is about to set in a few minutes. We sat in the sand and watched the sun. I feel mixed emotions and I know that he feel the same thing too because I feel it.

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The sky will be cover by darkness sooner or later but I don’t feel like to end this day.

We ate our dinner and we watched the acoustic night. There’s a lot of people that night  but it is not crowded. I love the ambiance. We sang together and talk a lot of things again. Time is so fast but  are enjoying every single moment. My heart trembles when they sang the song title “Can’t help Flling In Love”. I feel inlove. We both hope that the song will never end. Awwww. Thank you for that song. We love it.

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Acoustic Night

Also, this is our first time to feel the warm of bonfire. Ang ganda! 🙂 And our first time to watched fire dance.So great! 🙂

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Our first bonfire together 🙂

I don’t feel like to finished this entry, it feels like I am saying good bye on this happy moment. Bf and I will surely miss everything. ❤

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Good Night 🙂

We had a great anniversary celebration.Thank you so much dear Lord. 🙂

Thank you. Love, Shane.

Thank you for this 💖
Thank you for making me smile every single day. I want to cry how happy I am to have you. I wanna hug you right now. I want to be with you tonight.

It’s already 1:00AM, I need to sleep and meet you in dreamland. I know your waiting for me there. Please wait more minutes and I surely be on your side. ☺️

I can’t sleep, thinking a lot of things. It is too much? Eventhough how many times you told me not to think of it, still I can’t resist. Everytime I close my eyes, I see it and I hold my feelings because…

… don’t worry smile is always next in line. 🙂

Is it weird if I write these crazy things tonight? The flowers is smiling on me. It’s not just a flower, it symbolizes your love and care for me. That was a time that you remember me to buy one. How lucky I am when I open the door and you try to hide those flowers but I heard it. I saw it in your eyes as well as in your smile. Your body movements is not usual. Your not good at hiding? :p lol.

Our endless Good morning and Good night msgs. “Hey, It’s Lunch time ming!” , “dinner time” and even txting “eat your merienda”. 😂 Saying how much you love me and miss me every single day.

You never fail to make me smileand feel love. I never thought that we are here. So far and starting to live our dreams together. Our love story always stand strong.

I want to cry with full of joy. I wanna thank God for everything. God, thank you.

Little by little, day by day, this flowers may fade away but it will never forget the time you gave it to me. This is not an expensive one but your love is priceless. The flower is so colorful and full of Love. The time that you remember me when you bought this. That there is someone waiting for this to receive. Your thoughts really counts. 🙂

There’s always a beautiful flowers in every woman.

The Happiness Box (2016)

It’s not easy writing something about “Happiness” even though I have a happy personality, I can’t explain it and can’t find a word to describe what happiness is. I am hoping that God will give me a wisdom to write something about the box.

This is the first time that I’ve done this in my entire life. Is it weird that I write my happiness in a piece of paper and shoot it in a box every time I feel happy. Happiness such as I received chocolates from a special person, I went to a beach, I cook pasta, I bought and receive a books, I met my high school best friends, I met new friends, I discovered new books and author, I arrived home early etc., I write it down and smile.

Year 2016 is about to end in a week, while I cleaning my room , I saw the box and suddenly I smile. I opened the box. My hands is starting to pick every piece of paper inside of it and read everything. I never noticed that I smile a couple of minutes reminiscing the precious moments that I’ve been share with my friends, family and relatives.

I opened all my notes, and I found out that there’s so many reasons to be a happy person and I can’t count on it. Problems, difficulties, sadness, can write it down in just one sitting but my happiness never ends.

2016 is full of wonderful colors. Everything is full of joy, full of blessings and love. I never realized that my 2016 has it’s own darkest colors– it’s not easy and I hate those dark colors. It keeps on crushing me! There was a time that life is really unfair and I don’t even know how to stand on. It’s not easy. I can’t count on how many times I fall, I cried and ask why. 2016 challenged me a lot. But, behind those darkest side, a woman like me can absolutely get a piece of paper and hold a pen and write her happiness thoughts and talk and pray to God silently in her deepest silent heart. I always believe that no matter dark colors of life may bring to me, I know I am with Him to bring back the brightest and wonderful color of my life.

 This entry is about to end, but you know what are the secret of happiness life is?  I don’t even know. Haha! Just be simple and happy. Happiness is a choice. Learn how to be “contented”. No matter who you are, what we are – just be contented. I am not saying that you don’t need to aim high for something you want to get or achieve. No, just go on and live your life the way you want it to be but do not ask for more that something  that will turn into “excess”.  If we are happy and contented on what we have, we will have an ability to share to others without thinking what will left on us and we will noticed that we are starting to love one another too.
We are meant to share what we have to those who don’t have that’s why we have a different state in life. Some are poor and some are rich. There’s always a life balance.

And of course, knowing God. We are nothing, without Him. Let’s start to have a closer relationship on Him. He has no favoritism, he has no religion. If you are good or bad – He loves you and he will listen to you. Just talk to him with all your heart. Trust me, but you trust Him more.

Read his words. You will find the real happiness that I can’t really explain from the start of this entry and you will see that you will feel the Joyous life.

 

This  is a late entry. It was written last year December,2016.

Spellbound

When was the last time we turn around and never face our greatest fear? or something that we are scared  to stand on? We are not sure once we say “YES” everything will be all right and our heart will be filled with joy. We knew from the first place that it will not be easy and we are not sure what will be happen along the way once we grab it. Our heart say we want it but our fear stand behind us. We are afraid, but we are hoping to hear from our lips to say yes.

And, when we say “NO” our interest to something will fade away. Something that will break our heart for a long time.

That’s why were still in the dream of fantasy every time we close our eyes and once we open it, reality starts all over again. We are long for the happy ending story every single day.

I remember the movie I watched last night. After a long time, I’m finally free to watched a Korean movie. I didn’t watch a movie  most of the time because I most prefer reading than watching 3-hours straight. The movie genre is Romantic, Horror/Comedy. It’s a little bit scary, but at the same time I enjoy watching it. Even my tears fall on the last part of the movie.

This is the story of a street magician (Jo-goo) who noticed one of a miserable looking girl during his show and she winds up being the inspiration for his “Horror Magic Show”. The show has been success. To make the story short, the girl work for magician together with the other staffs. Forward to almost a year later, the darkness inside her, something her colleagues sense. As the girl and the magician developing a friendship together, Yuri confesses the long story about her past life. The girl has acquired an “unwanted” ability  to see dead ever since she survived a high school automobile accident. Dead people/ghost appear on her daily life. Her best friend who died in an accident follows her everywhere and scaring people around her. That’s why, she don’t have a lot of friends. Every person who became close to her starting to left her because they see unusual thing every time when they are with Yuri.

Yuri is so lonely and wants to be happy. Even how many times she say that she is happy to herself,  she always find herself alone and crying. Even though it’s like this, Jo-goo still on her side and never left her. The two of them start to develop feelings to each other. And though Jo-goo is sometimes scared witless himself, he loves Yuri enough to overcome his fear.

I really cried on the last  part of the story. The moment Jo-goo confessing his love on the girl and he want to stay with her. He  is really scared to be with her, he came to the point that he cannot sleep every night because of the ghost. It is so hard for him. But, he think about Yuri behind of this, that she is alone and screaming with her lonely heart. It makes his heart rips out every time he think of it.

 

“If I’m like this, thinking about you being alone. It’s better to have a ghost on my back rather than left you being lonely.  “

In our current life situation, we will also feel like this. We are portray or we are exactly the same as Jo-goo in the main character of the movie and Yuri is our spellbound and our fear is the ghost on the story. No matter how we want and choose our wants / interest we will never have it if we are not ready to face the fear behind us.

I believe that we should follow the same path that Jo-goo take. No matter how scared he is, he choose the girl she loves and overcome his fear. Because this is what his heart screaming of and in the end he is filled with happiness.

Remember that every time we say “YES”, believe me that every “fear” will follow you wherever you are like a ghost in the movie. You cannot sleep well too because your fear is bothering you. But, as long as you have God and a road map on what your heart really wants, the ghost or fear is just only a part of your journey to make you strong and  overcome your fear. And, remember that it will not be as easy as you think but don’t worry believe me, you will smile at the end of your journey and your heart will be filled with joy.

 

I still believe in Happy Ending.

 

PS: please watch the Spellbound (2011) movie too! 🙂